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To Love and Let Go

by Atlas Mason

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1.
To Love 04:42
The smoke and haze couldn't break my gaze, We went walking by the capitol, I wanted to hold your hand but it wasn't enough, no, When I left you there, I think I learned to love, But that some thing, oh that one thing wasn't enough, no, She was a hurricane, she left me undone, She was nicotine, the smoke in my lungs, When you left that place, like you always said you would, I still went back to feel the ghost you left in the valley woods, I always knew that place would never be the same, But I didn't think a thousand miles away, I'd still be in pain from it all, She was a hurricane, she left me undone, She was nicotine, the smoke in my lungs, She was a heart attack, a song I haven't written yet, She was chaos, and she was wonderful, The way that you left nearly drove me insane, The pain and the prison inside of my brain, How you could have held on to me but you pushed me away, 'Cause you knew I would stay, She was a hurricane, she left me undone, She was nicotine, the smoke in my lungs, She was a heart attack, a song I haven't written yet, She was chaos, and she was wonderful...
2.
(Joel) The cold winters kept you away, The roads blocked until Summer's coming, School fills your mind while I'm losing mine, A phone call away makes a thousand miles seem less gray, (Brian) You were my favorite song, I fell in love with your melody, I can't be there to check if your arms are marred with your problems, (I bet there's a story for each one) While trying to manage my own, (But I don't want you to feel alone) Throwing sand into the great divide between us, (Emptying a sinking ship with a shot glass) Your voice is all I have to judge, (Your voice is all I have to judge) You'll never know just how it killed me, To help you pack up your things and leave, The letter you wrote took the life from my bones, But I'd read it again just to bring you home, You were my favorite song, won't you come be my harmony, I can't be there to check if your arms are marred with your problems, (I bet there's a story for each one) While trying to manage my own, (But I don't want you to feel alone) Throwing sand into the great divide between us, (Emptying a sinking ship with a shot glass) Your voice is all I have to judge, (Your voice is all I have to judge)
3.
Dead Flowers 04:15
(Brian) Wasting time, flipping through your old high school yearbook, Foolin' around, living the fantasy that everything's ok, Nowhere to go, nowhere to be until tomorrow, Reminiscing about, the night that could have changed where we stand today, (Ethan) It's a shame for sure, all that's left from that night, Is the bottle of wine you picked out, And dead flowers... Hoping for the chance to see you smile again, Like you did, even the darkest of days couldn't stay around, Would it last, or fade away like the rest of the memories? Pull me close, tell me that everything will be alright, (Brian) It's a shame for sure, all that's left from that night, Is a button-down I'll never get back, And dead flowers.. Thinking of you, I'll never forget what you said to me, While we were laughing about how ridiculous we looked, (Ethan) All dressed up, having the time of our lives, Hold on to this moment, and never, ever let go... (Brian) And never, ever let go... (Brian and Ethan) I will always stand by my words, when the day comes you will see, I mean it when I say you're the only thing I need, (Brian) It's a shame for sure, all that's left from that night, Are the dreams out of reach and dead flowers...
4.
It's gotten colder since you've been gone, The last couple months have been long, You're leaving wasn't part of my play, I tried out for the main role but lost my place, Due to negligence, and disgrace, All I really need, is to know whether or not you've been eating, Don't get whisked away in the wind, Stay grounded my sweet little friend, I waited until you were gone, To say what I actually thought, I learned it's not a good idea, to wait to have these talks, You said you felt judged, I wish that I would've know, You said you felt like you did things I would not condone, All I really need, is to know whether or not you've been eating, Don't get whisked away in the wind, Stay grounded my sweet little friend, I look back at all that happened, and I know I'm to blame, I caused the spark, and the flame, That burned all I had to the ground, Now all I have left is this pile of shame, All I really need, is to know whether or not you've been eating, Don't get whisked away in the wind, Stay grounded my sweet little friend, I hate the selfish lust that drove us apart, You say there was too much love, I would argue, There was not enough, A body is only made to hold a soul, A body is only made to hold a soul...
5.
Road Signs 02:42
(Brian) Adventure called her name, so she called out to me, Testosterone disguised as bravery, Finding limits, testing them, I was looking for an answer, but I found adrenaline, Heart racing, head spinning faster, Keeping quiet but almost wishing for disaster, 'Cause if everything goes wrong, and we lose ourselves to road signs, Better stories stand the test of time, Socket wrenches, rusted vice grips, Trying not to laugh too loud when I lost my step and slipped, Thought we'd stop at three of four, but there's seven in the backseat, And I'd rob this town bone dry if you'd come do it with me, Heart racing, head spinning faster, Keeping quiet but almost wishing for disaster, 'Cause if everything goes wrong, and we lose ourselves to road signs, (Hunter) Better stories stand the test of time, 'Cause if everything goes wrong, and we lose ourselves to road signs, Better stories stand the test of time, (Brian) With the cloudy sky and the tall green trees, And your deep blue eyes and this valley breeze, At the mountains peak, at the water's edge, I'd rather get lost with you instead...
6.
(Brian) Freeze frame, eye contact, a stare like broken glass, Your mother's protective spirit had the wind against my back, Commitment scares, don't think I'm sure, Echoes in my mind like sickness I can't cure, (Ethan): I don't want to go, I just want to hold on a little longer, (Brian): Sleep on everything, (Ethan): I don't want to leave, I just want to stay here with you, (Brian): Wish I could just get lost at sea, (Ethan): Every night I can't seem to close my eyes until three in the morning, (Brian): And disappear from the emptiness, (Ethan): I'm losing my mind, (Brian): But I'm not scared of anything... (Brendan Radomski of Later Days) The voices in my head tell me, I'm better off alone, I've got a history of trainwrecks, I'm a mess, It's all I've ever known, Wish I could be someone worth the leap, someone you could keep, Swear to God I've tried... (Ethan): I don't want to go, I just want to hold on a little longer, (Brian): Sleep on everything, (Ethan): I don't want to leave, I just want to stay here with you, (Brian): Wish I could just get lost at sea, (Ethan): Every night I can't seem to close my eyes until three in the morning, (Brian): And disappear from the emptiness, (Ethan): I'm losing my mind, (Brian): But I'm not scared of anything...
7.
Stranded 03:53
(Ethan) I'm running out of things to say, On this crumpled piece of paper, No matter how long, I'm stranded far away, I will come back for you, (Brian) I lie awake each night hoping that you get my letter, An hour will never pass without me missing you, If I ever see you again I'll never look away, Don't give up on me now, (Ethan) All I have to keep me company, Is the memory of the last time, You told me you still loved me, After everything we'd been through, (Brian) I lie awake each night hoping that you get my letter, An hour will never pass without me missing you, If I ever see you again I'll never look away, Don't give up on me now, There was a song in your voice I heard when I was a kid, And I still remember it, melody intoxicating, I heard you singing, in that room to undeserving ears, I think back to those years, I think back to those years...
8.
Shoulders 05:32
My dreams can turn to nightmares for all I care, If I never sleep again but she's sleeping next to me, I would be content, I will hold your fears back, a river dammed until my bones crack, And when the dark sets in to shut your ears, I'll sing you to sleep, Though there's chaos all around, be the silence in the sound, Though there's chaos all around, won't you be my solid ground, So tell me I'm your best friend, tell me that you love me, Push me down to my knees, put your world up on me, I can bear the weight, my shoulders broad and steady, And when this worlds abandoned you, Don't let yourself forget me, So keep your head on straight when mine is spinning, Humble me when I am winning, Put me in my place, when my ego crowds this tiny space, Keep my temper down, when I explode don't let me run my mouth, Though there's chaos all around, be the silence in the sound, Though there's chaos all around, won't you be my solid ground, So tell me I'm your best friend, tell me that you love me, Push me down to my knees, put your world up on me, I can bear the weight, my shoulders broad and steady, And when this worlds abandoned you, Don't let yourself forget me, You are not the only way out, You are not the one who gives me life, You are not a drink when I am parched, Nor glasses on my blind eyes, But you are my sunrise, MY day is brighter with you here, And these clouds could never dampen, All the joy that you have shared, Though there's chaos all around, be the silence in the sound, Though there's chaos all around, won't you be my solid ground, So tell me I'm your best friend, tell me that you love me, Push me down to my knees, put your world up on me, I can bear the weight, my shoulders broad and steady, And when this worlds abandoned you, Don't let yourself forget me...
9.
(Brian) I saw her in a dream last night, It really caught me off guard 'cause for the last few months I've been fine, It felt so real, I touched her skin, I lost myself inside her daring grin, She led me away, hips starting to sway, But daylight crept in, Please don't wake up now, (I pleaded with myself) Just a few more minutes inside this world... I know it's not real but it's closer to love than I've been in a long while, So let me sleep, Maybe I should call her up tonight, I'm not looking for much, just a chance to make things right, The timing is bad but she'll understand, I've been missing her, and I'm sure she's glad, But maybe I should just go back to sleep, Accept this all as fantasy, Please don't wake up now, (I pleaded with myself) Just a few more minutes inside this world... I know it's not real but it's closer to love than I've been in a long while, So let me sleep, My eyes shut so tight as I buy into this beautiful lie, There's so much more than I can see, I hear her calling out to me, (Christina Murphy of Forever Starts Today) My love it's been too long, Timing is all wrong, The miles they couldn't keep, You away from me, my one and only, There's so much more that this could be... (Brian) Please don't wake up now, (I pleaded with myself) Just a few more minutes inside this world... I know it's not real but it's closer to love than I've been in a long while, So let me sleep...
10.
(Brian) Clinging to the words you said to me in a dark room, "That's just the way it works, and I'll be gone soon", A life on a mission, to prove her wrong, To steal her away, "It was you all along", Her words in a painting hang on my wall, "To know the heart of a singer, listen to his songs", I didn't love you just to climb the walls I've found, I came to tear 'em down, I've been tearing apart the seams, I think back to that freezing night in December, The fire kept us warm all night, I remember, The stressful August afternoon, She told me she loved me, I still think about it, Can't escape the distance, it picks at my brain, No matter the miles, it seems that things never change, I swear I'm trying to erase the things I know, I swear I'm trying to let go... Staying up too late to make sure you fell fast asleep, When you were missing home, I was there to help count sheep, Pulled you away from drinking, now I drink myself to sleep, Didn't want to hate myself, but my will was growing weak, Your eyes sucked me in, I gave into sin, I've been running around in circles trying to begin again, I put you in my storage space and you left me on your shelf, I've been trying to let go, but you've been making it hell, I've been tearing apart the seams, I think back to that freezing night in December, The fire kept us warm all night, I remember, The stressful August afternoon, She told me she loved me, I still think about it, Can't escape the distance, it picks at my brain, No matter the miles, it seems that things never change, I swear I'm trying to erase the things I know, I swear I'm trying to let go... (Christian McGahan from relief.) You made me feel like I was worthless, Like a life spent with me, held no purpose, But that's the thing, with being broken, We tell each other lies to make sense of the pain... (Brian) I've been tearing apart the seams, I think back to that freezing night in December, The fire kept us warm all night, I remember, The stressful August afternoon, She told me she loved me, I still think about it, Can't escape the distance, it picks at my brain, No matter the miles, it seems that things never change, I swear I'm trying to erase the things I know, I swear I'm trying to let go...

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released December 22, 2017

All songs written and performed by Atlas Mason
(Brian Kettering, Joel Simmons, Ethan Brandenberger, Hunter Howell)

Produced/Engineered by Joel Simmons and Brian Kettering

Special thanks to:

Brendan Radomski
Christina Murphy
Christian McGahan
Cameron Brickell
Anthony Morales
Skylar Harpole
Jared Shotwell
Chris Washington
Ryan Thiele
John Anderson
Brian Marshall
Brian Piland
Mike and Sally Kettering
Scott and Jill Simmons
Mr. and Mrs. B

...as well as all the girls that inspired these songs.

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